For more than 10 years now, I have been trying to get some understanding on a few deep topics like meaning and purpose of life, happiness and success. They have been haunting me for long now. I almost had my bets on the true purpose of life as “To exhaust it all (whatever lies within) to create the best you can!”
Then recently I read something on Buddhism and The Noble Truths leading into concept of control over feelings and got introduced to one very interesting concept. Fusion of Buddhism philosophy with Theory of Natural Selection. We (human beings and other living organisms) are wired to do things so as to improve our chances of survival. The origin of our feelings could be attributed to Natural Selection: ‘Fear’ when we feel threatened, ‘Love’ coz we ultimately want to pass on the genes to next generation and hence to improve our chances of survival, etc. We have evolved so much over last thousands of years that these feelings now come natural to us. That could be one of the reason we seek out material and worldly success – to prove our superiority over billions of other people > to be one of the promising candidate to pass on our genes and our legacy.
Assuming that all this is true and say Theory of Natural Selection is a Universal Principle. That means Universe is constantly trying to improve and evolve towards a better and more efficient form. Human life being one very small component of this ever evolving multi-verse. If this is true, purpose of any thing (living, non-living, micro-organisms or humans) should be to become more and more efficient and for us (human beings) it might boil down to improve chances of survival through any possible means – passing on the best genes, programming human genes, improving life span, exploring the outer space and settle humans in parallel worlds, etc.
All this is possible only if we acknowledge our desires/feelings and feed them – desire to do more, desire to achieve, desire to prove ourselves, etc. Till this point it still makes a some sense. Now the tricky part. With such desires come all kind of feelings – pain, disappointment, etc. And so the saints say that to be really happy we need to break away from these feelings through discipline, cessation, mindfulness, etc.
So, building further on above thoughts, two possible ways of living life could be:
1) To closely listen and feed your feelings – so as to do the best you can to improve chances of survival – do big things and make a dent. This is aligned completely to supposedly Universal Principle – Theory of Natural Selection.
2) To control your feelings, be mindful, be happy and break out of this whole cycle. No desire, no sadness, no disappointments. But I think it would be super hard to work against a Universal Principle. That’s why only few can actually follow this path.
Something inside me tells me that there is a third path as well:
3) Life of Excellence: Discover what lies within and use all your talents & resources to create whatever best you can. Think fine artists, sportsmen, etc.
I am torn as one part of me wants to be a super achiever and another part of me wants a reclusive life somewhere in a countryside.
At this point, I am not sure what the truth is. I have got a hunch that it lies somewhere in between the three triads, but have no clue how to triangulate them to find the only truth.
Any help (suggestions on books, people, articles, etc.) to push me towards The way of Life is more than welcome.

Someone chanced to be born in USA and another one in a tribe in Africa. Someone born in USA planned to travel to Europe and chanced to be at the Brussels Airport at the time.

Someone chanced to born poor and made it to super rich. That super rich chanced to be in Syria and had to leave it all.

Someone planned to take Uber to home and chanced to get in the way of rogue drunken driver.

This World is a mess. You don’t take chances… Chance takes you.

Enjoy this moment! This moment is the only truth.

Baandh ke yun, kyu chal raha hai khud ko… 
In sab ke banaye daayere mein!
Ye apne pankh faila ke to dekh…
Kahan door tak le jaate hain ye tujhe!

‘i am’

Posted: August 4, 2015 in i_THINK_therefore_i_am, Philosophy
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when I apply whatever lies within…
to create whatever I can… 
only then I become ‘I am’.

Once you decide on your occupation… you must immerse yourself in your work. You have to fall in love with your work. Never complain about your job. You must dedicate your life to mastering your skill. That’s the secret of success… and is the key to being regarded honorably.

– Jiro Ono (from Jiro Dreams of Sushi – a must watch documentary)

Ten years of continuous search, research, lots of books and what not to find answers to few larger than life questions.

  1. What is life?
  2. What is my purpose?
  3. What is that one special thing I have been put on the Earth for?
I must have read more than 100 purpose and self-help books, chicken soups, articles, blogs, etc. Top few tools mentioned by one and all:
  1. If you have all the money in this world, what would you do?
  2. If you know that you are going to die in one year, three years, etc. what will you do?
  3. Find your passions and find out what you like doing
  4. Write your own Eulogy
…and what not.
After too much serious time and energy into all this I understand these may be good guiding tools. But the best of all I realized is this one:
Fuck them all!
Time to act is NOW! Either you will DO it right NOW or you will keep finding excuses.
All these things are elusive. You got to be living in the current moment. Enjoying current moment to the fullest and biggest!
It’s not that complicated. Seize the day! Few rules to live by:
  1. Act on your dreams NOW!
  2. If not now, universe is not going to inspire you ever. (By the way, do you really think Universe conspires / inspires? Does it even care? Really?)
  3. No one cares even if you do it wrong. So, just do it.
  4. Do BIG things. Make a dent in the Universe (Steve Jobs). Do EPIC shit (Johnny Truant).
  5. ‘Live EPIC in the moment’.
Carpe Diem!!
[Would it be okay to post this on my blog? Or shall I not?… Fuck it! Who damn cares!]

With each passing year, each hour, each moment… we experience so much. And then ‘Experience’ of having these experiences and accumulated experiences… I’m today talking about this accumulated Experience with a capital ‘E’.

With each experience we become wiser, more strong and emotionally more stable… As they say.

But is this accumulated Experience really good? Is becoming emotionally stable really good?

With each and every experience are we not slowly moving  away from our core and intense emotions… are we not becoming cold to our passions? For e.g. first encounter with actual death or terminal disease you witness… you are not able to sleep for days… then next… then next… and then yet another. And suddenly one day you realize that such things doesn’t affect you that much. You have become stone hearted. Then next thing that moves you is something happening to your very close family/friends… you again feel heightened emotions for some time… then next… then next… and we are emotionally cold again.

Another not so dramatic example… we are in early twenties and we believe that we can do almost everything in this world. We take up your job, hobbies and interests very passionately. We want to change the world. Then one year passes with some compromises… some routines… attending to some urgents somewhere. Then another year… then another year and slowly passions and dreams die to give way to so called reality and responsibilities (another socially acceptable excuse for procrastination). By the time we are in our thirties we have ‘E’xperienced so much that we would not even realize that we have become stoney, emotionless, lifeless. And we end up saying passion is for kids we have already so much else to look into. Really?

Why can’t we do something about it? How can we keep our passions alive?

Solution is simple. At least sounds simple. We need to unwind some experiences. Undo. Forget some of the things. Let go of the load we carry.

But how? Few ways – Speak out loud. Write out randomly. Keep writing till your head feels lighter. We need to find out what works best for us but we need to connect more with our deeper emotions and let go of any limiting ‘E’xperiences. ‘E’xperiences should not become an excuse for us to disconnect with our soul.

Let go, simplify and keep connecting.