Archive for May, 2006

‘What happened buddy? You were not like that. I have seen the optimistic you at times when everyone else gave it up to destiny. You can’t just collapse.’

Yeah I am not like that. So, what should I do?? I think I need some time.. Some time to recollect my energy, and more so to recollect my thoughts. I need to introspect, to think what actually went wrong with my last chase… My last ‘Dream’. Nothing is impossible… Nothing is invincible… So, what went wrong?? Was it my dedication? Or was it my effort? C’mon I can’t say luck. I don’t believe in that. Then?? Well dear, can’t answer you right now. I need some time.

Hey, don’t get disheartened yaar. Cheer up! One thing you can take from me. I will get out of this mode. It might take some time, but I will come out stronger and much well equipped than before. ‘Coz now I know how much it hurts when you see your ‘Dreams’ going away. When you wave Good Bye to them. When you see them going far far away towards some distant land. When you feel them ‘fading away’. It hurts, it really hurts. But, I will definitely come out of it and this time with a better and more powerful line of attack, and will set one more ‘Dream’ and will chase that one till ‘Death’. I don’t know I might succeed or I might fail again, but I will never give up ‘dreaming’, because if you don’t ‘Dream’ then you are already ‘Dead’. So, ultimately its upto you, you wanna be ‘Dead’ or ‘Alive’?

‘Please understand…’

Yes, I understand… I understand you dear… Don’t worry I won’t trouble you again. What if, I have always thought of you? What if, I have always aspired for you? What if, I have always wanted to be with you? What difference does this all really make? No, sweetheart I won’t bother you again.

‘You are so great a person that you have no parallel. You are very mature, and understanding.’ says ‘Dream’. ‘It is really great to come across a person like you. No one can ever replace you, your respect and your mark in my mind. I can never forget you. May be you deserve something better. May be it is all happening for good. I wish you all the success in life. Have a wonderful life (without me), and be in touch.’

Smiling and with watery eyes I say goodbye and let go ‘The Dream’ to some far off land. Standing behind with a proud chest and inflated emotions but standing all alone.

Next day, I think about getting in touch with ‘The Dream’ again, but something is preventing me. Some resistance is there. But what is that thing… who is stopping me to reach ‘The Dream’… Wait… Let me think… Oh! Okay, maybe those two immortal words ‘Please Understand’. Yeah now ‘I understand’.